So it's been awhile since I wrote a post, you ask what gives? Life a mix of wonderful beginnings and new possibilities. Foreshadowing? Perhaps but that's for me
Where to begin tonight well I finally got a job at a nursing home. I also made my first drug error. Insert the dum dum dummmm here. In 12 years of being in the medical field and not letting a situation get to me or take control of me it happened. Now of course because of HIPPA, what protects your info from others, I can't go into it. But I will say that what I did learn was that some people are plain old assholes and yes I did know this before but I still get shocked when life seems to point it out to me. I also learned that there are nurses who have been nurses for too long, when you get a sick enjoyment in seeing if you can rattle another nurse then you need to retire. Snide comments made stating "oh look you have the new nurse maybe we can make her quit" make me curse like a sailor in my head while I gaze lovingly at you and your demented mother and say "I have your meds". You think you can get me, oh no I'll go toe to toe with you and now after this I will make it my mission in my work life to never let this person get to me again.
Still fired up so I ended up giving a double dose of an anxiety med which didn't harm this person but resulted in me having to go to the ER to do a drug screen and then a meeting the next day. Was I shitting my pants of course because I let myself down. I let a stupid bitch get in my head and distract me. Long story short I passed the drug screen, still have my job and learned alot from it.
Enough about work.
I also have been planning D's fifth yes 5th birthday. I am so proud of the little man he is becoming. I really couldn't be more proud of him. I am so apprehensive about his birthday also, because it's a day filled with such fond memories of my Mom. The sad thing is his last birthday we had just found out that she had Chronic Lymphocyctic Leukemia and she had asked me not to say anything to my sister until after D's birthday. She also made the comment after all was done that she hopes she gets to see his next birthday, we know how that worked out. I miss her, I miss her hugs and there's been so many times I wanted to crawl into the big bed and tell her what's been going on. Tell her what's been making me happy lately and funny things D has done. I notice that I block it out alot it's easier sometimes to ignore that part of my life and enjoy the present and to live. I've dealt with the fact she's gone and I accept that it's all the things that remind you that get to me.
So D is having a Monster jam truck themed birthday. Which I thought would be easy to throw together as far as decorations, not so much apparently it's not that popular I guess. So it was probably the most online shopping I have ever done in all 34 years of my life. But I was successful in my shopping even managed to get a pair of great heels for me of course and a dress. So I bought D a guitar. It's his big gift this year. The boy loves music and to dance too. He has dreams to be a rockstar his exact words were "I'm gonna play my geetar and people are gonna scream and I'll call you". Nice I get to stay home. Well I am sleepy, my eyes are red and I'm trying to do way too much at once so texting is winning over the blog tonight people sorry to say but that makes me smile.
As always love forever and always.
